You Haven’t Lost Yourself — You’ve Just Been Buried Under Who You Thought You Had to Be

There was a time — before the deadlines, before the algorithms, before everyone’s opinions started echoing louder than your own — when you just knew who you were.

You moved with curiosity. You trusted your yes and your no. You didn’t overthink your laughter, your creativity, your sensitivity. You didn’t apologize for your energy — you just were.

And then, slowly, the world got a hold of you.

You learned to be “good.” To do it right. To be productive. To fit in. And in the process, you began to forget.

The Moment You Realize You Lost Yourself

For many awakening women, remembering begins with a quiet ache. You wake up one morning and think, “Wait… how did I get here?”

You’ve checked all the boxes — yet something feels off. You’re “grateful,” but your spirit feels homesick for something you can’t name. It’s not drama, it’s dissonance.

That ache is your energy field whispering that it’s time to come home...and you're ready.

In Human Design, this often happens when we’ve lived for too long through our conditioning — through strategies that once kept us safe, but now keep us small. For a Projector like me, it looked like constant proving, performing, and pushing. Trying to be the Generator I was never designed to be. Trying to earn what was already mine: worth, rest, and wisdom.

The moment I began honoring my true energy (and I am still working on it and believe it is a life long journey) — slowing down, noticing when my body says “not yet,” and waiting for genuine invitations — my entire world started reorganizing.

It's like the static continues to clear and my natural rhythm is returning more and more each day.

The Feminine Art of Slowing Down

One of the greatest lies of our modern awakening culture is that you have to hustle your way to high frequency. That you need another course, another ritual, another timeline to “get there.”

But the truth is — the moment you slow down enough to feel, your essence starts to speak again. It's about being in devotion to yourself and being so present in your every now. It's about leaning in to what resonates...that's the frequency shift.

When I begin to guide women through the Vision Mapping and Conscious Goals work in my beYOUtiful by Design process, we begin not with “what do you want to do?”but “who were you before the world got a hold of you?”

Because before the world taught you to rush, your energy already knew how to receive. Before the world told you to be productive, your body already knew how to rest. Before the world told you to plan, your intuition already knew how to lead.

This is the feminine frequency of visioning — creating your future not through force, but through remembrance.

This may sound so foreign to you, but does it resonate?? That's all you need is resonance my awakening friend.

How to Remember

Here’s a little moment you can take right now — something I do with my clients often:

1. Pause. Close your eyes. Feel the breath drop from your chest down into your belly. Slow everything down.

2. Ask: “Who was I before the world told me who to be?” Maybe she shows up as a little girl, twirling in the grass. Maybe she’s painting, writing, dancing, or sitting in the quiet of nature. Maybe she’s softer. Or wilder. Or both. For me she's creating dance routines and playing with makeup-not for anyone else but ME.

3. Listen for her rhythm.What did she love? What lit her up before anyone told her what was “practical”?

4. Feel her in your body. Notice the sensations that arise — warmth, expansion, maybe tears.That’s her. She never left.

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This is the essence of my Human Design work — not another system to learn, but a mirror to remember your original design before conditioning took over. Your blueprint is not a map of who you should be; it’s a remembrance of who you’ve always been.

When You Slow Down, Life Speeds Up

The moment you stop rushing toward your next version, you begin to embody it. Energy reorganizes around that presence frequency, not pressure...

I am in this phase now so have soooo much to say about it.

This is why I help awakening women slow down before they “vision.” Because when your nervous system is at peace, your intuition gets louder. Your next steps appear naturally. And instead of chasing your future, you start living it now.

The Invitation

If this post found you in a season of remembering — where you can feel your old self slipping away and your new one hasn’t fully arrived — you’re exactly where you need to be.

This isn’t regression. It’s integration. You’re not lost. You’re remembering — gathering back the pieces of yourself you left behind to survive...at the most perfect, orchestrated time!!

✨ My free Fit YOU Back In Energy Blueprint is where that remembering begins. Inside, you’ll discover your unique energetic rhythm, learn how to reconnect with your intuition, and begin aligning your body and life with your true design.

You don’t need to become someone new — just come home to yourself again.

👉 Download your Fit YOU Back In Energy Blueprint here.

I'm cheering for you so hard!!!

Smiles,

Kelly